Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Monday, February 28, 2011

you know its monday...........

Jonah is doing a great job of telling me when he has to pee, but he refuses to pee in his potty. That is for "little boys" he says. But apparently peeing in the shower is for "big boys". So he stands in the shower and pees. At least he's got the "I've got to go" thing right? Its kinda a pain in the ass though. I have to take off his pants and socks, then once he's done I have to wash his feet. But ok, he's peeing somewhere other than his diaper and I should be thankful...............right?

This morning, he said he had to pee, we went through the whole disrobing process and he peed. Great! Then he pooped. Ok, this has happened before, I just clean the shower. And lets be honest my shower doesn't usually get cleaned this often so maybe its a good thing? But today after he pooped in the shower, he decided to rub his feet in it, Ahhh no wait stop, Then he reached down and grabbed some and smeared it on him self, AHHHHHHHHHHH StOPPPPPPP, then he ran out of the shower and started smearing it everywhere in the bathroom, like seriously everywhere. OK. So I finally wrangle him get him up the stairs and into the upstairs shower since the downstairs one is out of commission!! We are both covered in poop, and um its super gross. But then we are clean and I think its all over.

I was feeling relieved. I forgot about what the bathroom looked like. But then I came back downstairs and it smacked me in the face. By this point the poop is dried and caked on to all the surfaces and I want to cry.

So happy Monday to you all. I hope yours is less poop filled than mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, February 18, 2011

Have you been outside today!!!

Jonah and I just went on a fabulous walk outside!!

I wore a tee shirt, jeans, and my sandals. Thats right I said sandals!!

Jonah wore a tee shirt, jeans, and his rain boots, cause he wont leave the house without his rain boots anymore.

He actually refused to leave the house without his winter coat and hat. He was sure I was forgetting them and as he stood under the coat rack pointing up and looking at me like I was crazy for asking him to leave without them I tried and tried to explain that its 70 deg outside he didn't need them. After 5 min or so he finally agreed to trying to go outside without them, he then of course ran down the street completely liberated in the gorgeous sun!

Now he'll probably refuse to wear his coat and hat ever again even though the weather is turning colder.

Oh spring how you tease me. I wish it could stay like today. But I'll just have to carry it in my memory for the next 2 months till the 70's return.

In other news I started sewing on the sleeves of Jonah's bday sweater today!! Almost done!!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

spring?

don't toy with me spring. you better actually be here. I don't know if I'll be able to handle it if you go away again and are replaced by endless days of 20 deg weather.
I need you spring. I need you to fill my house with sunshine, I need to be able to open my windows and feel the crisp air flowing through. I need to be able to go outside, on walks, play in the playground for more than 15 min at a time.

don;t leave me my beloved warmth.

Spring please stay!!

As for you stink bugs, I'm ready to break up!

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

retribution

There Jonah and I are scrambling to get out of the house running late for an appt we have to tour a preschool.
I ask him to get his sneakers, he returns proudly holding his rain boots and sits down for me to put them on him. Its not raining I tell him, you need to wear your sneakers not your rain boots. He is adamant, he will be wearing his rain boots today.
I begin to argue and then stop myself in my tracks. What am I doing? Me of all people telling some one what they should or should not be wearing. Making fashion choices for some one else.

The yrs of arguments my mother and I had over what I was wearing and I swore up and down that I would never NEVER do that to my child. I would let them wear whatever they wanted to, I would respect their individuality, I would embrace their creativity and self expressionism. And yet there I sat on the bottom step with my son telling him that he couldn't wear his rain boots because its not raining.

I immediately put down the sneakers, called my mom, let her gloat for a second and then put on the rain boots. He happily strutted out the door in his green boots covered in pictures of bugs feeling proud that he made the decision about his footwear.

I hope that is the last time I ever try to tell him what to wear. Who do I think I am?

Friday, January 28, 2011

snowy days

its snowy here, very snowy, with more on the way today and tomorrow. I better get out of the house today during a break in it or I may lose it.

We went to the childrens museum on tuesday before it all started so of course jonah now has a cold. I'm still looking for a plastic bubble if anyone has one. maybe I should try craigslist.

At least he slept till 6 today instead of 5.

You would think with all this time spent inside of the house we would have gotten all the stuff on our house to do list done, but you would be mistaken. maybe today we'll be able to tick a few things off, probably not.

you also may think that I've gotten a ton of knitting done during this snowed in period but once again, nope.

I told myself that I couldn't work on anything else till I finish my niece's leg warmers, its killing me to get them done. they aren't hard or anything to knit, I just have a mental block. i should just allow myself to move on, this is supposed to be fun right? That's it, I've decided, I'm giving myself permission to knit something else, I'll get back to the leg warmers when I get back to them, even if its in June, wool in june is ok right? lets just say yes!!!


I've also been baking bread in the bread maker, after a few failed attempts. our kitchen is unheated and the bread wasn't rising so I finally put a space heater next to the machine and viola bread!! yummy delicious warm bread!!

and I've been baking brownies. i think I need to make some butterscotch sauce to go with those bad boys. and strawberry sauce cause I love me some butterscotch and strawberry together!!

yeah, that to-do-list is staying just as it is! I've got chocolate chip cookies to make, its normal to make cookies at 7AM right?

Friday, January 14, 2011

update

country white bread baking away and filling my house with joy!!

jonah's scarf is finished and he loves it so much that he refuses to even try it on........it could work as a headband for me right?

As the stomach turns!

Jonah has the stomach flu! I had the stomach flu! and Peter has somehow avoided the stomach flu..........so far!

Aghhhh. I have washed our sheets, clothes, and everything else in the house innumerable times. I'm ready for this phase of our lives to be over thank you very much.

I did, however, get a good deal of knitting done while stuck in bed. I finished the mulit colored balaclava. but I would rather have avoided the experience all together.

I'm contemplating making mittens to go with it, but I've never made them before. It is National Knit Mitten month so if not now when really?
I can't believe that there actually is a National Knit Mitten Month. I love knitting and all but shouldn't our law makers be focused on I don't know, just off the top of my head...............ending 2 wars, poverty, immigration, nutrition, the prison system, the education system, gun laws,,,,,,,,,,,,rather than voting to make January Knit Mitten Month!

I'm going to break out one of my fabulous Christmas presents------The bread machine that Kara got me!!! The smell of fresh baked bread in my house in a few hours is making me a little giddy!!

So I'm off to make bread and finish the scarf that I started for Jonah this morning. Then I'll get back to the puke laundry and then figure out whats for dinner. Those 2 things don't really go together do they?

Monday, January 3, 2011

I'm too tired to be taken seriously

It's 3:27 Am so basically ignore everything that I'm going to say for the remainder of this post.

My child is sick, again. dr appt tomorrow or really just later today can not come soon enough. how can he be so bright eyed and bushy tailed at this hr. its really quite rude if you ask me. the only way to behave at 3 AM is asleep if you ask me.

Last night he woke up at 12:45. I took the 12:45 to 2:15 AM shift at which point Peter took over. he finally got J to sleep at 5AM. And then the kid woke up at 7:30 at which point it was my turn again.

currently we are watching "Mary Poppins" again and again and again. that music can really get in your head and then make you want to stick an ice pick in there for good measyre. peter and i keep catching ourselves singing them around the house.

and on another topic what is up with Prince William and Kate not wanting servants? can I have them if they aren't using them? i could use a house keeper and cook for a little while. As soon as she pops out a kid she will be begging for that housekeeper and cook cause who has time to do the dishes with a newborn hell I don't even have the time to do them with a toddler.

there should be a phone number you can call and talk to other moms who are up in the middle of the night with their kids. we could all cry to each other and talk about how tired we are. i suppose i could find a chat rm or something on this here computer that had moms in the same situation but a chat rm really can't replace hearing the exhausted voice of a fellow mom to make you feel like you're not alone.

how can he be so fine with drinking milk, eating pretzels, and watching a movie at this hr. I am not fine with it,. i want to be in bed, eyes closed, and whats that word, its been so long since I've done it, oh right, sleep. that's it. sleep. oh how I miss you.

Is it ok to sleep on the couch while your kid is awake. does it count as parenting if you're in the rm or do you actually have to be awake? who makes these rules anyway?

is there some sort of plastic bubble i can put us in for the rest of winter to prevent anymore illness? did anyone else see the movie "boy in the plastic bubble"? maybe he's not using his anymore and we could borrow it. how hard is it to make a clean rm like they have in the hospital? i suppose you'd actually have to have a clean house first which just brings me back to the house keeper thing. the bottom line is that I don't want to leave the house for the rest of the winter and part of the spring to prevent anymore sickies invading our world. Peter could get sprayed with some sort of disinfectant before entering since he has to leave for work and all. how am I going to get groceries, good question. I haven't worked out all the kinks yet.

it's 4AM, my child is jumping on the couch with no interest in going to sleep, excuse me while I go cry............................

Friday, December 24, 2010

My wrap on wrapping paper

I had hopes. High hopes. This would be the yr. The yr I show up at my MIL's house on Christmas eve with our presents already wrapped. Usually I have to ask for paper, tape, and scissors. At least this yr I'm bringing my own paper. That's an improvement right?

I hate wrapping paper. Its so wasteful, its bad for the environment. I just can't get behind it. My dad just gives people gifts in the plastic bag they came home from the store in. I agree with him in principle but I find it hard to do that either.

One yr I made my own wrapping paper with scrap paper from the company I was working for at the time. They probably wouldn't appreciate knowing that their documents were being repurposed in that way but at least I felt better about wrapping paper that yr.

I love the way a nicely wrapped present looks, lovely bow and all. I just don't love it enough.

This yr we got paper from the dollar store.

My Grandmother had a dresser full of used wrapping paper that she had salvaged from yrs past all organized by holiday and occasion. She actually ironed the paper to get the wrinkles out so no one would know. In theory I love that idea. In practice, well..........

I'll wrap them all at the last minute which I guess is about as much protest against wrapping paper as I can muster right now and enjoy the rest of Christmas.

Happy Holidays!!!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Wish and reality - 12/21/10

What I would like to do today:

-make bacon chocolate chip cookies
-make cranberry crumb cake
-make cranberry cupcakes with clementine cream cheese frosting
-make beer chicken with leeks and broccoli and mashed potatoes for dinner
-weave in the ends of Peter's Christmas sweater, same for Vivi and Siena's legwarmers
-wrap Christmas presents
-take a nap

What I will most likely actually do today:

-bake one thing
-make dinner on the fly
-do approximately 3 loads of laundry and put all the clean clothes on the folding table leaving folding till tomorrow
-vacuum
-pay bills
-try and convince Jonah to take a nap

And yes I did say bacon chocolate chip cookies. I saw the recipe a few days ago and haven't been able to get it out of my head. I mean, bacon, chocolate, cookie. what could go wrong!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

My most recent pet peeve

Here it is:

Save the date magnets!

Our friends are getting married. They're a great couple. I'm very happy for them.

BUT.......................a save the date magnet is a commitment I'm not sure I'm ready to make to these two. Every time I walk into my kitchen for the next 6 months there they are, they're smiling happy in love faces staring back at me. All I want is a glass of OJ do I have to have an encounter with you two as well.

And I really don't feel like its something I can throw away. 1. its a magnet so it does have a practical value, and 2. it would be rude, right?

Whats wrong with a good old fashion card, and email? why a magnet?????

SO there it is my most recent pet peeve. thanks for listening.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Its a competition-apparently

I thought I was being a parent but apparently I'm in a competition.
I'm not competitive at all. People hate playing games with me cause I honestly could care less if I win or lose. I just want to have fun, dare I say it enjoy the experience.
But ever since I got pregnant with Jonah I feel like a lot of other moms are competitive and trying to drag me into their deal.

It started with getting pregnant. It took us more than a few months, but my view is that it happened when it was supposed to happen. Other moms: "oh one day my husband and I decided to try and we got pregnant that very night". Well good for you.

Moving on to pregnancy: I was incapacitated with nausea for 3 1/2 months. Laying in bed, only getting out to vomit, I gained weight, plenty of weight, and once the nausea stopped my back hurt, I was up all night with a kicking baby, I loved being pregnant but it wasn't the most comfortable time of my life. And don't even get me started on the hemorrhoids!
Other moms: Pregnancy was wonderful, I wouldn't have even know I was pregnant except for the belly and I didn't even have to buy maternity clothes, just kept wearing my size zero's the whole time. Well good for fucking you.

Delivery: Jonah came at 8 months, c section, not the water birth with mid wife that I had planned. Did I mention I went into labor on a Wednesday and he was born on the following Monday. I was in transition on I-95. It hurt, it hurt ALOT!!!
Other moms: just a few squeezes, I would describe it more as pressure than pain, and then poof out came my baby.
And to those moms who claim to have had an orgasm while in labor I think I speak for everyone when I say "PLEASE KEEP THAT TO YOUR SELF!!!!!"

My baby didn't sleep, there's did. They never once had a blue moment, I did.


Now all I hear is "what do you mean your child doesn't sit quietly in the corner and read all day, why can't you go to a restaurant"
Why, cause my kid is busy, he's got stuff to do.

Well let me tell you "other moms" I'm done. I'm getting off this merry go round, I'm not playing your reindeer games! I am not in competition with you or anyone for that matter. Shouldn't we be pulling together and supporting each other rather than trying to drag each other down. You won, you're the best mom out there, you're fabulous, you're tops!! Me? I'm just a normal mom trying to get through every day the best I can while taking care of myself, my family and my kid. And I think I do a pretty damn good job!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Thanksgiving - a little late

The short version:
Thanksgiving was wonderful. Uncle Tom, Lynn, Kara, Alex, Caroline, Scarlet, my Mom, Peter's parents, and Julie all came over. We had a great time!

The longer version:
I woke up on Thursday morning with the flu. Everyone loves eating food cooked by a snotty coughing person right? Thankfully Kara made a bunch of sides which were delicious! Peter hung out with the smoker and produced and amazing smoked turkey. The highlight of my cooking were the pumpkin whoopee pies if you ask me.

Jonah and Scarlet had a great time playing together. So nice to see cousins having fun.

Football was watched, food was eaten, and thankfully I didn't get anyone sick!

Friday, November 12, 2010

less than 2 weeks to go

Thanksgiving is less than 2 weeks away and I am already feeling the stress.

I'm a planner. I love lists, crossing things off off of lists, rewriting lists, color coding lists, I'm giddy just talking about it.

But I haven't really done much planning for the big day yet. Sure I've ordered my turkey, and yes I know what one of the desserts will be, tart apple toffee pie in case you're wondering. but the rest of it is a mystery.

Not to mention all the house stuff I have to do before my family arrives. Pictures need to be hung, boxes still need to be unpacked, yes all stuff that should have been done by now considering we moved in in August but well, um, stop judging me!

I want to smoke the turkey this yr, considering we bought a smoker and all, but I've never used it before so this weekend will be the dry run. with a brisket instead of a turkey.
I have high hopes but crossing my fingers just in case.

Oh and after a set back with Peter's sweater, like 20 extra stitches.......yikes! I'm back on track after a bit of frogging. I hate frogging.

Monday, November 1, 2010

does anyone ever day trick?



My guys on Halloween afternoon.

Handed out halloween candy last night for the first time and it was as amazing as I had always dreamed it would be. Growing up in an apartment building with few kids meant that the few kids there were went to their friends buildings and in my adulthood either I wasn't home for it or no one came. but last night they came in droves!! the 4 bags of candy I had bought were gone well before the last child was out.
I felt a little defeated turning our porch light out with kids still on the street but also relieved that there wouldn't be gobs of junk around.

Jonah handed out the candy, and loved putting it in the "big kids" bags. No trick or treating for him yet. I'm putting off that for as long as possible.

In other news while J napped yesterday P and I tried to rewire a lamp, I was assured that it is a super easy project, but half way through I called the company for help only to find out that they only offer help Mon-Fri. We resorted to YouTube which helped some but I have to call back the manufacturer to finish up. meaning that my dinning room is covered in lamp parts which Jonah has decided are WAY more interesting than his toys............... obviously.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Doogie gave Wanda a pelvic!! and other things.

I've searched, and searched, I've looked for swarms of fruit flies and armies of ants but I still have not found the banana. Or the sour cream.

Yesterday as J and I were getting out of the car he wanted to hold my keys. I put him in the house, keys in his little hand and went back to the car to get groceries, etc.

After putting away everything I noticed that he wasn't holding the keys. I asked him where they were but he just laughed. That's right laughed. I asked a few more times but he wasn't telling just laughing. Then I took to searching through his toys, books, everywhere to no avail. Frustrated, convinced that I would never find them, have to get a key made for the car, how does one get a key made for a car, etc. I see something out of the corner of my eye in my bag...........it's the keys. He put them back where they go. Frankly it was kinda annoying!

This got me thinking, maybe he threw away the banana and sour cream. Could it be that the reason I can't find them is cause they are no longer here? This will drive me crazy till the end of time.

On another note, has anyone else seen black stirrup pants and scrunchies popping up in stores recently. TOOOOOOO SOON PEOPLE TOOOOOO SOON!!!! If I see one pair of pegged jeans out there I will not be able to keep my mouth shut, I may have to unpeg on the spot. You have all been warned!!

And another retro item. Last night after knitting I came home to find P watching a new channel on the tv. Its all reruns of classic shows. SO after watching the end of Wonder Years Doggie Howser came on. And what an episode it was.
Picture it: Doogie and Wanda are on their second date, she gets appendicitis and to diagnosis it he has to give her a pelvic exam. Ah they don't write em like they used to. Then for some reason he has to do the surgery etc. It was great. But my favorite and least favorite part was at the end when she asks if he saw her naked and he says only from the upper chest up and her shoulders. UMMMMM you gave her an f'n pelvic YOU SAW HER VAGINA!!!!
First what did she think he was doing down there, did she think he had his eyes closed. Second what did this teach young girls like me watching this, that your vagina isn't part of your body or something?
I know I'm probably reading too much into a Doogie episode but maybe not.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

33 1/2 and other random stuff

Today is my half birthday. I am officially 33 1/2. I love celebrating my half birthday. We celebrated them in nursery school and I unlike others have never seen the reason to stop. The problem lies in the fact that not everyone thinks a half birthday is a celebratory event. Ah, one day the world will join me!
I'm pretty sure that if I sent the idea to Hallmark they would start making half bday cards, but I don't believe in cards so ya know, I wont be doing that.

Knit night, as always, was perfection.

I have once again won the mother of the yr award, given to me this time for the black eye Jonah is currently sporting. He tripped on the door jam.
How do you commemorate your little boy's first black eye? Is there a traditional gift? Is there a specific cake? I hope there's a cake.
Maybe I should invent one. We could call it "black eye pie" or "black and blue 3 layer triple chocolate cake". Do you like how I threw in triple chocolate there for no reason what so ever other than the love of chocolate.

I have been craving fall weather for at least a month now and it finally started peaking in. And except for the 3 days of 90 deg temps that we are currently experiencing I'm sure it will be back soon. Right, RIGHT MOTHER NATURE! Cause a girl can go a little batty when its 90 deg out and the trees are changing color. It makes my insides go all wonky.

Oh and the project day that I had planned yesterday was more of a theoretical project day than an actual one. Lets say it was a planning day for the real project day that is going to take place today.
Oh and amazing green couch from the 50's that was in goodwill on Monday. If you're still there today you are coming home with me!!!

Friday, September 17, 2010

cafe des artistes closed, and I'm just finding out about it now

I just got depressed. it came on all of a sudden like a ton of bricks.
And whats weirder is that its over something so unexpected.
I just found out that Cafe des Artistes closed. And the worst part is that it closed 2 yrs ago. 2 yrs, and I just found out now. That fact is sort of astonishing to me.

Cafe des artes is, or was, this amazing restaurant in NY, on the 1st fl of the Hotel des Artistes which used to be an artists residence/studio space building. The walls of the restaurant were covered in amazing works of art done by the residents who lived above.
It was very pricey and the kind of place where men had to wear jackets. I only went twice once for dinner and once for drinks.
The time I went to dinner, the food was amazing and the atmosphere transported me back to its heyday.
The time I went for drinks I sat at the bar with a friend, had way too many cosmos (the one and only time I drank cosmopolitans) and ended up talking long into the night with a local NY news caster, the late Peter Jennings in case you're interested.

I only went into the restaurant twice but I walked by it and looked into its windows at that amazing art work at least once a week for the majority of my life. My cousins lived on the same street, my apt was 10 blocks away but I grew up in their apt as much as I did my own.

I would purposely walk down one street instead of the other just so I could peer into cafe's windows. I loved the idea that if you couldn't pay your bill a painting would be accepted. Those days ended long before my time but I loved that it happened at all and that I got to benefit from it. It became a ritual.

My other connection with it was that my Aunt Laura used to make their desserts with her friend Madge, that was until the health dept found out that 2 young moms were cooking out of their home kitchens and selling it to a fancy restaurant.

Aunt Laura taught me to cook, instilled in me my love of cooking, showed me that by putting love into the food that you cook for your loved ones is a way of expressing that love.

The reason that I didn't know that Cafe closed is that in 2003 Aunt Laura died of breast cancer and they sold the apartment. I miss her more than I can put into words.

I guess the reason seeing that Cafe closed 2 yrs ago upset me so much was cause it made me realize how different life has been since Aunt Laura died. I can't believe that I hadn't walked down 67th st in 2 yrs. I can't believe its been almost 8 yrs since she was here with us.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Have I mentioned that I love our new place?

Friends, crabs, beautiful weather, what more could a girl have asked for this past Labor Day weekend. Its so great to hang out in our fab backyard watching the kids run around and interact.
Three boys 18 months, 2 yrs, 2 1/2 yrs all getting along, for the most part. Yes there was some taking toys out of each others hands, throwing grass on each other, and other such minor things, but for the most part it was heaven for them and for me.

The first party in a new place is always a little awkward and this one was no exception but at the end of the night as Peter and I were sitting on the couch reflecting on the day and feeling incredibly blessed to have such incredible people in our lives I felt good and safe and full.

Swimming lessons start tomorrow for the J man and I . It should go well considering how much my little guy loves the water. I'm more nervous for me having to hold a squirmy toddler who just wants to GO GO GO!!

Knit night tonight, thank goodness. I need to be around the ladies who always always lift me up, make me feel peaceful through uncontrollable laughter, and remind me that creativity can be a form of prayer.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Is it fall yet?

This is going to sound crazy coming from me but................I CAN'T WAIT TILL FALL. I know I know usually I start the count down to summer the moment the temp hits 65 but not this yr.

This summer has flown by. We moved mom twice, thats right twice. We moved once.
P taught summer school
For the first time we didn't take our annual summer road trip.
Maybe its a combination of those things maybe its none of them.

I also think the summer went so fast because it was so insanely hot. Usually we are outside for the summer. Hiking, playing, enjoying. But this summer we spent most of the time (when we weren't moving) sitting in front of fans hiding from the blazing sun.

It was just so contrary to our normal seasonal activity. I'm a hot weather lover. Give me a pair of shorts, a tank top and my birkenstocks and I'm a happy girl. I dream about my summer uniform all winter long.

But now I can't wait till jeans, sweaters, and wooly socks. I'm even taking a sock knitting class to get prepared!!

And let me say that a girl who lives in a super drafty and poorly insulated house from 1840 should not be looking forward to cold weather. Peter and I have spent hours talking about hanging curtains from doorways and putting plastic on windows to try and make it somewhat warmer in here in the winter.
You know it's going to be rough when all your neighbors say things like "good luck in the winter in that house".
But it just makes me want to knit yummy sweaters and blankets and cozy up with my guys.

Last night I dreamed that I could crochet. Maybe its time I learned?

Even though its going to be cold I love our house. We are still surrounded by boxes but its so nice to be in this space. I just feel much more positive here.
I'm happy.