I love chocolate

Just found a box of chocolates that I was given for Xmas. It's unopened. It's ok to eat right.........I ask this as I have a mouth full of chocolate. Fyi

is a fight ever really over?

I just had an argument with someone. not a huge blow out, tears rubbing down my face kind of argument . but an argument none the less. and the worst part. the very worst part is that I don't think we'll ever see eye to eye on this. i think its going to have to be one of those agree to disagree thingamajigs. i hate those thingamajigs. and thank goodness my kiddos can't read cause we don't use the word hate in our house.

but really is it ok to agree that you're both right or is that all in our heads and in reality we are both harboring resentment and anger about said argument for the rest of our friendship. and will that ultimately lead to the end of our friendship.

I want to say fuck it all. I'm right and this person can go take a walk but they mean something to me and if they took a walk i would probably run after them.

in other news if i don't get the F key fixed on this computer it make be taking a walk out the window.

made the cutest baby head band for my niece yesterday. just need another one and her bday present will be done. i'll post pics when there are 2.

the meds i'm on make my hands shake like crazy so forgive me if there's a wrong key pressed here or there. and I'm not one for proofreading. i'm a write it and get it out of there kinda girl.

Restarting, I hope u like it

1. i know that this picture is hopelessly out of focus bit i love my 2 babes snuggling under a blanket

2. I was told that i should restart my blog to have a creative outlet. apparently Knitting Sewing Photography & Journaling isn't enough.

3. I Also Would like to say that I love elastic pants. I mean seriously am I the only one who finds the whole button zipper thing exhausting. Somedays i still wear maternity pants just so I don't have to deal with that bs.

4. This picture is like my life at the moment: out of focus, blurry, but full of love and smiles.

A year

Its hard to believe that a yr has gone by since I posted last. In that time Lulu had grown into an amazing toddler. walking, the beginning of talking, growing growing growing.

Jonah has turned into a kid. One day I turned around and my baby was gone, replaced by this kid. This kid who I love and am in awe of everyday. Today starts "F" week at school and Jonah listed everything that he could think of that started with "F" on the way to school today.  Firetruck made the list more than once.

The season is changing. My children are  changing. I am changing.

Not ready for winter, not ready for big sweaters, boots, and long underwear. I wish we could just stop right now.

We have a talker!!

My little man is talking!!! Now it may seem odd that I would be excited that my 2.5 yr old is talking but you see this is a new event. Up until now Jonah has said only a few words and those that he did say were understandable only to those of us that spoke "Jonah". But now, WATCH OUT. He is TALLLLLLLKKKKKINGGGG!!!

He got tubes put into his ears 2 weeks ago to help his recurrent ear infections, hearing and speech. Peter and I both felt that he was speaking more clearly on the ride home.

Every day he has been saying more and more, actually saying Mommy instead of MMMMMM. and Daddy instead of Da.
All of a sudden he is counting to 8 and saying the alphabet except the letters V and W.
Who knew that he knew those things. Its truly incredable.

P and I are both big talkers, actually saying that we're big talkers is kind of an understatement so the fact the we had a child who didn't talk was really unexpected. I do think that it has helped me though, I have had to become a better listener, a better communicator. I have had to really listen to Jonah in non verbal ways, get to know what his cues, his gestures, even what his posture means. And for someone who is used to just talking talking talking it has been rather revolutionary.

But now my little guy is talking. and to be honest I'm relieved. It has been difficult, really difficult for me at times. But now Jonah can actually tell me what he wants an I love it love it love it!!!!! hearing him say 1,2,3,4, more, 5, 6 ,8, 7 is absolutely beautiful and no I don't know why the word more comes between 4 and 5 or why 8 comes before 7 and frankly I don't really care.

give me an S

today the stars aligned an for 15 wondrous minutes both of my children were asleep. They never nap at the same time so I was very skeptical about how long this would last but throwing caution to the wind I decided to shower!! That's right folks SHOWER!!! It had been so long since shower and I had hung out.

I was nervous that one would wake up crying and thereby wake the other up so it was a super speed shower but the water was hot and I am clean.

Its really nice to not smell like baby puke...............sadly I'm sure its not going to last long.

Oh and of course as soon as I got out of the blessed shower Miss Lu was awake :)

Confession:

Here it is! Are you all ready for my confession?

I'M NOT WONDER WOMAN!!

Its true, I'm not. Its taken me a while to come to this realization, maybe some of you have suspected it all along. But its just hitting me now. I am not wonder woman. I can't do it all, be all things to all people, save the world.

Of course Wonder woman might not be so wonderful either if she had 2 screaming kids in the back of that invisible airplane of hers. I mean there really is no way she's chasing a toddler in those heels, and while her bracelets may be fabulous for deflecting bullets they would most likely scratch a newborn every time she went to pick them up.

Don't get me wrong. I love Wonder Woman. She has blue hair for goodness sake, sure they say its black but we all know its blue. And I'm obviously a fan of her bright and colorful outfit. But I'm beginning to question whether even she could do it all. Maybe the reason she doesn't have kids or a spouse is because she felt that she had to make a choice between career and family and she chose career. After all saving the world is a big job and when your kid has an ear infection you can't really ask if the "bad guy" could try and destroy the world tomorrow cause you're needed at home.

So if Wonder Woman can't do it all and I can't do it all maybe I'm more like her than I thought.