because 1 sick kid isn't enough

so now I  have 2. 2 pumpkins sitting in their patch looking mediocre and wanting me to entertain them. which let me just say after all these many days home with child #1 I'm pretty much out of ideas. yesterday I did a song and dance routine for him. Seriously, I'm not kidding.. it wasn't pretty.

And of course its going to rain all day so my go to activity of "lets run around the backyard" is out.

J just told me that thursday is his favorite day. so maybe thats a good sign.

but its only 6:38 am and if I hear the words "bubble guppies" 1 more time i may hide under the couch.

I know I took a shower today, i swear i took one. but after 3 hrs of gardening i am questioning my memory. J is home with chicken pox which we're calling kangaroo pox because it sounds cooler.

he was very excited to be helpful and it took a lot out of me to think of ways a spotted 4 yr old could help.
started everything in pots and now they're ready for full gardenhood.
 we got on the rest of the peas, some beets, kale, eggplant, spinach, and cucumbers. hopefully we'll get the rest in later. and of course there's still stuf in pots that's not quite ready yet.

i swear finding stuff to make my own bean climber has twisted my brain. hangers, old stockings, branches, etc. think i'm going to give in and just buy rabbit fencing.

now back to the 4 yr old who is sick but not acting like he's sick. i mean chicken pox is a cruel mommy illness. he's sick yes but still running around like he's ok so you have to come up with activities and alphabet writing and sock puppets just to entertain this little guy till dinner. i mean i pay a perfectly good preschool teacher to do this shit. and don't they always say to expose your kid to another kid with the pox. so let him go to school and infect all the others. 

Moms

On Mother's Day it makes me think of my beautiful children. How they came in to the world so differently. How they have the same personalities on the out side as they did when they were growing inside of me. J was and is busy busy busy, woke up at 5 am everyday while I was pregnant with him and still wakes @ 5 am now. My little L so determined, you can't make her do a thing she doesn't want to do. Full of attitude and sass. Usually you can press on a pregnant belly and the baby will kick. Se kicked when she wanted to thank you very much!
I am so lucky to have them in My life and I just hope that I am the best mom that I can be to them.

But it also makes me think of all my friends who are struggling to get pregnant. AmaZingly we are at that age where getting knocked up just isn't that easy any more. The thing we used to pray not to have happen and took every precaution against is now the thing we pray for and do everything we can to have happen. I feel unbelievably bad for all the people I know going through it. after trying the old fashion method for yrs. adoption,  gestational carriers it all adds up. And there are no guarantees. How did we get into this position? Aren't we still in our twenties?
And I haven't been without my own fertility issues. I've been pregnant 5 times and have two beautiful kiddos.
Why should waiting to get pregnant mean we most likely wont without some sort of invasive intervention?

I want another baby but it probably won't happen. I would love to adopt so maybe we'll go down that route.

To all the moms out there I hope you have a wonderful day. And to all those wishing to become moms Mayan fertility massage worked for me. Maybe it will for you to. Sending you all love and fertile thoughts.

tilled

Our garden is FINALLY tilled!!!!!! so exciting. Now I just have to rake out the grass etc and we're ready to go. Our seedlings have been beautifully growing in our sunny back window and are almost ready to put in the ground. I went crazy with the heirlooms this yr. purple dragon carrots, lemon cucumber, mini watermelon that you can just pop in your mouth like a kumquat. I mean come on  thats really cool. oh and purple cauliflower.black and white tomatoes, eggplant, kale, etc

I still need to get sage, more marigolds, thyme and squash.

But all and all I think we're in pretty good shape.

The sheep and wool festival is today. I usually go but this yr decided that the temptation to buy yarn would be too great so I'm skipping it. but if I knit from my stash all  yr long I'll go next yr.

Today will be filled with making dandelion jam. Now you really can't beat a day like that!!

Hubby dressed little girl today. he put her in completely clashing prints. he said He dressed her as if he were me. I think she looks fab.

pressure

J has been wanting me to drawn shapes for him to cut out. Now that was all fine and dandy when the shapes were squares and triangles, but now he's moved on to hearts and stars. and frankly I'm just not that good at drawing. I feel a lot of pressure to draw perfect shapes so that he can see what the shape is really supposed to look like. But then I think that nothing is perfect and am I teaching him the wrong thing by introducing perfect into our lives. then i remember that its just a kid cutting out shapes and I'm totally over thinking this whole thing. He's just happy to be doing something with his mommy and I should feel the same :)

third arm

i have a new appendage. its about 2 ft tall, weighs 27 lbs, and has an amazing laugh. my dear sweet girl is fully attached to me through this latest illness. and frankly my arms are getting tired, i'm thinking
of breaking out the ergo.

i miss my ergo. but then again i haven't carried around a 27 lbs toddler b4.

i should mention that i'm writing this with one hand since the other one is being used by my little lady as she lays on me.

sorry this post isn't more interesting

104.4

104.4. That's the temp my sweet baby girl currently has. She's so sick that she just wants to lay on me and snuggle and fall asleep, so basically while I feel bad that she's sick and want her to get well as soon as possible I am loving the snuggling mommy little girl time.

It's a rainy day here. I bought mulch made out of chocolate pant shells. So basically it's the best mulch ever cause it smells like chocolate. Ahhh chocolate mulch how I love thee.

Pot roast for dinner for the meat eaters in the family and tofu and veg for the non meat eaters.

Wish I could say I made something for dinner, but um yay just can't.

What are u making for dinner?